I used to be a heavy drinker and opiate addict and occasional stim user. Before I met a girl i was the most outgoing social popular cool guy, the best version of my depressed self ive ever been. 5 years later shes cheated multiple times and left. Im clean off opiate but use stims alot more and I only drink alone. I have no friends no sex drive no ambition, im riddled with social anxiety and nothing helps my depression. I want to be the man I was when I was fueled by pain pills booze and had a great social and sex life. I forgot how to be me. I want to be the animal again. Bring the Legacy of my name back. I just dont know how.