As said, having a rough time. My relationship is breaking down to a variety of things like cheating, prostution, an ex-wife, kids, I cheated back and the overfall fact I feel like I don’t get support anywhere. I feel like I financially back everything. He works three jobs and I work one. But we never have money and I make the sacrifices. I can’t see where all his money could possibly be going.
That’s just a synopsis. It’s really a rollercoaster, hey? But the point being I have a large array of mental health I’m battling, depression and anxiety, autism, ADHD, eating disorders, body dismorphia, and my recently diagnosed ptsd.
I’m also getting to the cause of my mental health issues, it’s really triggering and I’ve never actually dealt with it.
So currently I have started smoking, like daily instead of occasionally. Cause it is the only thing that helps, I can think and hear clear and make decisions that I can think about the next day. Then smoke again and solve it. It’s kind of unlocking the missing piece of my brain. It’s fantastic and I haven’t felt this content in a while – obviously wishing I could feel this continuously.
Sorry for the roller coaster, just needing to vent I guess?