When I was a teenager I would binge dose on Xanax bars on the weekends. Like 8-10mg in a weekend. I’ve been clean for about 12 months, but that’s just due to force of will pretty much.
Anytime anything even slightly annoying happens my mind instantly and inevitably starts thinking about hopping back on the xans. Like, dropping my keys while at the front door. Someone talking too loudly. Things not going as planned, etc.
I miss Xanax like an old friend but I know I can’t fw it anymore because my life has changed and can no longer support a xanny addiction